It's Time Cont'd

The rest of Thursday through today... hers in italics:

:-( Sorry

Request a different teacher? {regarding email vent about J's teacher}

1 orange so far. and I weighed 139.000000 WOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOO

The other teachers would be going to lower math, which he doesn't want to do, probably for the embarrassment of it.

Now that I'm off my high horse this teacher isn't HORRID, she's hard nosed, black & white, and uncommunicative. I guess it could be worse - she could not care at all.

The nice thing even though is homeroom teacher is firm, she's very loving and caring and believes so much in him that she helps to balance out the math teacher and pull me back from the edge with the math teacher haha.

bagel 3 pts

5 pts total

Applesauce - 1 pt

6 pts total

I've unstressed a little. Can you tell :) ?

Nice...

Ate a whole wheat tortilla tuna salad wrap...5 pts. really surprisingly good! I like the whole wheat tortilla!

so 6 pts...

then i'm gonna have my coffee now and I probably won't eat anything else, cuz i have an appt at 6:30. I might eat some popcorn w/ the kids tho...but that'll be a few pts only.

yay for life

Whole wheat is awesome. The fresh whole wheat pasta in the refrigerated section tastes just like the real thing.

Ummm glass of wine 2 pts

I'm sounding like an alcoholic lately. Maybe I'm on permanent pms?? This period thing is freaking me out a bit... Maybe I had one I forgot about!!

going down hill quick...

2 bacon - 2 pts

1 belgian waffle - supposedly 5 pts, but i think its not

coffee 3 pts

so 16 pts...guess that's not too bad. can i stay there tho?!

16 pts is awesome!! yes you CAN *channeling bob the builder from back in the day*

Had a boy scout court of honor tonight - Justinbustin is now 2nd class whoo.

Had two rice krispie treats (3 pts), fruit, and lots of veggies with dip (1 pt)
Chicken burger with the usual (i'm addicted lately) - 7 pts
Cookie - 4 pts

20 pts. blah.

and one more piece of bacon and 1 orange...so about 23? I might try to exercise...I noticed my tummy flatter after exercising my abs.

blah.

hopefully i stay at 139.0

:-(

yup - exercise, especially cardio "melts the tummy fat" as my bgf KT would say

ahhh, still have to do my exercises :( . i realized it takes a half hour to do my exercises and they're pretty strenuous at times!! so that's probably adding a half hour of light to moderate workout in my day - maybe that's why i've been "okay" butting up to my points

106.5 tonight so hopefully i'll still be 105.5 tomorrow. See!! That's why I do the night weight. I've been 107.5 at night until now. i think. haha

try another preg test...$1 at the $1 store

well, i ended up at 23+ pts....oh well...did my ab work 2nite, we'll see how it goes in the mornin'

gettin my hair done tomorrow at 8ish...yay!

did 3 highlights today! Made $180!!! Minus product $150??

Have to pay off cr cds...excited!

FINALLY!

Yeah, I may try another prego test tonight. I bought a box with two.

I finished yesterday at 20 pts. Woke up at 105 this am - whoo!

Subway Club - 6 pts

About to eat edamame - 2 pts

xo

Salad with fajita vegetables, pico de gallo, and chicken - NINE points :(:( - I mistakenly thought the fajita veggies were 0, but they were 2.5 and the chicken was 5.5, plus the pico was one point. dang

So at 17 points, but I'm eating my ice cream dammit

still at 6 pts...having steak, potatos and huge salad for dinner, so saving pts for that.I'm so stoked!!!

2 fresca steak soft tacos at taco bell 6 pts

what happened to the steak & potatoes?

breakfast in bed this am: bagel, egg white, two slices bacon - 6 pts

Peanut butter and Jelly - 7 pts

Yeah, saving points for dinner served me well in the beginning. Now I'm going the opposite way :( :( :( . Learning a lot about myself haha. Forgot to weigh myself until after breakfast, then I was 107.5 - what?!?! - so gained 2.5 pounds yesterday?! I didn't even overeat. Ugh. Weighed myself later in the am and was 107 so no idea what I was in the am. I think I'm trying to break through a plateau, maybe. Too bad it's the weekend and I'm out of fresh veggies and fruit and money to buy them :( .

Oh hey, I worked out 25 minutes of intense cardio yesterday! I totally forgot. So yay that added an extra 3 points for yesterday! whoo.

did you take another prego test?

nice on workout...wish i had time.

So yesterday I did eat steak and potatoes....gained .5 lbs. think i was at my pts for the day, just ate late:(

Today i had a cup of chicken from a mall restaurant. no idea how many pts, but gonna guess 10 w/ the sauce.

Then had venti skinny vanilla latte...6 pts (4 pts for a grande).

done for the night, so I'm gonna lose weight,,,,right?!

Tata for now.

u aren't mad at me right? for my comment on the phone? i WAS teasing you!

maybe you are getting your period today...i gain a ton the day of

Took another prego test and negative, nada. My body is just majorly f**ed up right now - the period thing, my back hurts like f** {realized this was from rock climbing the day before - whoops}, and I'm a bitch. No, not mad at you - wasn't in the mood for teasing though. Brando and I have been at each other's throats cuz guess why - I haven't had any quality time (oh yeah, and all the other stuff). {my nephew}'s been off and on sick between events we've had and screw ups with arranging babysitting so I'm basically at B's throat 24/7. Did the Lifetime Fitness thing of rock climbing and water slides and sauna again yesterday though so that was fun for the moment.

ROYALLY screwed my points yesterday. Flew them a big fat finger in the face. Let's see if I can even remember what I did to rub it in to those damn points...

besides breakfast in bed (how spoiled am I that even after breakfast in bed I'm still a bitch because I want quality time) which was - 6 pts
there was the pb&j - 7 pts
then there was a free spicy chicken sandwich from chickfila without the bun - 7 pts
shitload of whoppers, milky way, and starburst - at least 12 pts
kettle corn popcorn - 5 pts
oh, plus coffee - 1 pt

so f**in 38 pts??

{forgot to mention to her I did an hour of intense cardio via rock climbing so at least that added 6 pts}

Another factor has been I ran out of fresh veggies and fruit Friday, so that's a big part of it I think. Replenished the supply last night so hopefully today will be MUCH better. I was 107 this morning, so gained back two pounds as of right now :/ .

{insert random washer review conversation here}
ugh, the reviews for the washer are so conflicting! one says quitest ever machine, the next review says loudest LOL

ate 1 orange and 1 banana...2 pts??

Sorry :( . Did you find a washer?

One cup fruit - 2 pts

One cup coffee - 1 pt

Chicken burger with the usual - 7 pts

Sweet potatoes - 1 pt

Broccoli and green beans - 0 pts

Four croutons - 1 pt

Salad with cilantro lime viniagarette and cherry tomatoes - 1 pt

Iced tea - 0 pts

So 13 pts total. Weird, cause I feel like I ate a ton - those sweet potatoes were filling! Back on the bandwagon today, yay!

Plus two hours of walking/hiking so four points extra - yay!

No wonder I feel full - I forgot I ate a cookie with milkshake today too. So add 5 pts.

18 pts total - 107.5 tonight. Yay.

so sad you won't be tracking much this week. hope everything goes well. here's mine for today:

one cup fruit - 2 pts
one cup coffee - 1 pt
one banana with honey - 3 pts

xo

Oh, yeah. And 106 this morning. Going back down, yay!

Breaking My Heart in a Good Way

A letter from my husband this afternoon that makes my heart ache in the way it's healing from the conversation we had earlier today:

Dear Bride,

I’m sorry. In my interview today, or rather walking away from it, something really mundane and not profound at all occurred to me. It occurred for a few reasons. Firstly because our problem, my problem, is that I don’t think of the people involved. Secondly, it occurred to me because ‘the job’ I was interviewing for was all I really thought of. I got the J.O.B.. I wasn’t thinking about the people. So what occurred to me. PEOPLE. Its about the people.

ITS ABOUT THE PEOPLE. I could go on an on about the JOB version of that because that’s where I am at right now and just processed the information through my head about the JOB & the people. But you wont care about that. So what about the Family aspect of the same. Well, take a minute and know my perspective. Look back 20 years to when I was in Justinbustin’s shoes. I saw my daddy working working working. Now he always told me it was because he has all these people to worry about (100+), but all I saw was his Job because he always said my Job… My work… I work… so on and so on. My example is Just DO to support. Interaction we never really part of it.

(insert segue here) Then there is your dad who I spoke to just before my interview. Well, let me sum up a difference in one word. SERVE. I almost feel like I should leave that thought there. Your daddy serves. He Serves PEOPLE. Because, its about the people. His clients. His Staff, His FAMILY. That’s what its all about, time with the people. Serving the people. Working FOR them, not working on them, with them or to support them… working for THEM.

That’s what has been missing. Serving for my clients, my job or my family means meeting YOUR needs. Needs. No ones needs are money. No ones needs are clothes, video games, makeup or bikes. Time, meaningful gifts, serving support and unconditional love are the only real needs any one has. (eating, toilets and paying tax’s excluded). I want to meet your needs. Completely and sincerely.

I love you.

It's Time Cont'd...

The rest of Tuesday through today... hers in italics:

WHAT? IT's easier for you?! Seems we are on the same boat...slwoly losing

*NOT* easier!!! You had said it WAS easier for me. Meant to say it's NOT easier.

pts:

eggs/egg whites w/ vegies and salsa 4 pts

popcorn 4 pts

smoothie 3 pts

snacks at sam's (freebies) : 3 (ckn sandwich and bbq ckn sandwich)

coffee skinny vanilla latte from java detour w/ coupon - 6 pts????? have no idea :( and its not on their website, that i can see

so 20 pts...i should be good today..have hilite tonight to keep me from food and coffee will keep off the hunger.

maybe i should do this every night

got a hot air popper so it'll be 1 pt. for 3 cups!! i can snack all day when i'm pms'ing!! think i told you that on the phone. i'm like my mom. on repeat most of the time.

Sooo S had an event today which had food. I didn't eat much, but it was a bunch of random little carb loaded, fat loaded things. So literally even though it was maybe five bites it was probably at least 5 points

Food at S's events - 5 pts
Chicken burger with same ol' - 7 pts
Maybe twenty fries? - 6 pts
Oatmeal Chocolate Chip Cookie dipped in milkshake - 6 pts

TWENTY FOUR pts

Dang, it's amazing how fast they go :( . How did I ever have room for ice cream the first few days?!?!

Btw 10 oz coffee latte is 4 pts, so yeah probably 6 since they come in 16 oz or so
call me! I'm done w/ appt.
i drank half the coffee so 3 pts...so 17 pts. yay.
should be 139 in the morning...have coffee in me so i might work out.

{edited out giant vent email that had nothing to do with weight watchers}
105.5 just now, but also just now forcing myself to eat one cup of fruit so 2 pts. stressed out to the max so probably wont be eating much today.

Oh yeah and STILL don't have my period.

It's Time Cont'd...

The rest of Monday through today... hers in italics:

Yes, they were good!

add:

3 cups popcorn - 3 pts.

still need to eat tuna salad

more poopcorn and i ate the tuna salad...soooo

11-12 pts so far?

One cup fruit salad - 2 pts

So 7 pts so far. Yay! Cuz I have girls' night tonight and we usually eat a LOT.

well, ihave dancing feb 5, night of my period....omg, the timing is so bad.

I really have to work at this!!!

NO FOOD 2NITE FOR ME!!!

Dancing Feb 5?

w and i, downtown...ate more popcorn/candy....oh boy:(

so, berry pie does me in...

I'm around 20 pts now.

:(

Hopefully I lose weight!

Isn't 20 your goal??

Beef, black bean, and corn chili with sour cream - 7 pts

Corn bread - 2 pts

Two glasses of wine - 4 pts

So 20 pts total.

Plus 30 minutes cardio adds 2 pts?

So doing okay. I was 107.5 tonight.

20 is my max

13 is my goalish

Dang. Um, that's a LOT less than what mine is. 19 is my goal and max...

It's harder for me to lose than for you.

weighed 140.6, so gained .4 lbs.

Canned Grillin' Beans 1 1/2 cups = 9 pts.

bites of Mac n cheese - 2 pts

so 11 pts at 12:12pm

Chicken burger on a wheat bun with lettuce, tomato, pickle, onion, & mustard - 7 points
Oatmeal chocolate chip cookie cuz it's yummy - 4 pts
Iced tea - 0 pts

so 11 pts at 3:18pm hehe

a low sodium SMALL can of tomato juice (can is like those lil' apple juice cans, ya know?) w/ bloody mary mix is 0 points!!! Unless I drink 2 of them, then it is 1 pt.

YAY!!!
so, 1 can bloody mary drink

yum!

tuna salad 3 pts

brownie 4 pts

so 18 pts.

think i'm gonna try to stop...i really tried to not eat brownie...i want more now, w/ milk :(

oh boy that sounds good, oh boy oh boy oh boy, don't know if i have enough self control....going dancing going dancing skinny skinny girl on the dance floor FUUUUU^#%^#%^&%@#

okkkkkkkkkkk i am strong.

gonna TRY to do p90x tonight OR get my hair done by k

You crack me up.

Took the boys to Lifetime Fitness (a mega fitness club with everything imaginable including a spa and cafe) on a seven day free trial today to get J's swimming requirements for 2nd class in boys scouts done. Worked out beautifully - the aquatics director of the whole place who has trained with olympic coaches signed off on the requirements for him, then offered him a free lesson to get him up to speed to join his swim team and mentioned how athletic he is. So funny - every coach who he has tried a sport with says that, I asked this guy why and he said he had awesome eye hand coordination. Interesting! Didn't know that made athleticism. He said too it's good to get them in a sport during puberty because that's when their muscles develop. That explains why swimmers have those swimmer shoulders later on in life. He also taught him rescue methods and signed on the requirements for that. So awesome! We ended up staying all evening from 4-8pm, playing basketball and rock climbing. I made it all the way to the top on the medium one on the first try! Then I did the hard one and got about 4 feet from the top twice. Whew - what a workout.

Then we went down their awesome water slides. The lifeguards were playing games with the boys giving S a head start to make him win in racing. J got his feelings hurt. I told him the lifeguards knew he was old enough to know they were helping S and he wasn't really winning, so really he was working in cahoots with the lifeguards and letting his little brother have a victory he doesn't get that often. He seemed okay after that. Hopefully S still felt the victory though cause J had gone down ahead of him a few times before that and said he won before they got into it and I told J what I told him.

So I'm counting the rock climbing as 30 minutes of moderate to intense workout so 2 pts.

Half avocado/turkey sandwich - 5 pts

.25 ounce bbq pirates booty - 0 pts

.25 ounce original sun chips - 1 pt

One cup fruit, mostly cantaulope - 1 pt

One glass wine - 2pts

So 20 points including this morning - damn not having enough room for ice cream.

Did you do p90x or hair?

Doing hair :( AND getting my hair done! I'm afraid to do p90x in the morning, but I might just have to bite the bullet.

that's awesome on the gym...how much is it a month if you joined? that seems like an awesome opportunity for the fam...wish we had one here???

wanna research :-D?!?!

I'm just putting dark color foils in my head...it's getting too copper for me.

didn't eat anything else...so i'm at 18 and will be busy the rest of the night...no time to think of food! YES!

{directly after sending my above long email, and before I received her reply back, I have yet to reply to hers above!}

By the way, it's so {meant to say so NOT} much easier for me to lose weight than you - I've been sitting right at 107 for a week now. I was 106 this morning for the first time, though. Yay!

It's Time Cont'd...

The rest of Saturday through today... hers in italics:

wine dehydrates you as well

2 ckn nuggets - 2 pts.

1 bell pepper, 0 pts?

headed to monster jam...pray for me to control myself!!!

what of it huh? huh? huh? are you saying something about my wine?

sorry didn't get your email about praying - does now count?

overloaded yesterday

1/2 reuben sandwich - prob 8 pts

2 steak kabobs (probably 4 oz steak) - 7 pts

Mojito - 9 pts

Oatmeal Chocolate Chip cookie dipped in milkshake - 6 pts

EFFEN THIRTY POINTS. But it was a good day.

So yeah.... I weighed 108.5 last night and 107 this morning

Um, yeah, just used the restroom so maybe that took care of the poundage.

Also I THINK I MIGHT BE PREGNANT. I STILL HAVEN'T GOTTEN MY PERIOD AND AM *SUCH* A BITCH.

{Nope, took a pregnancy test and negative. Must be because of my changes in eating. I was kinda disappointed - it would've been a purposeful happy accident}

So far today:

Coffee with milk - 1 pt

so last night (sat) i ate around 10 pts of panda express

venti skinny van. latte 4 pts

red rope licorice 3 pts (a whole one is 4!!!)

and I only gained 1/2 a lb.!!!

YAY!!!! cuz i ate them kind late too.

BTW, you never responded to sit up idea.

crazy if you are prego.

and only put the weight you are in the morning...that's how you know you;ve lost weight, from morning to morning. i always lose 1-2 lbs. at night!

I like to know the weight I'm at night to gauge how much water weight i'm actually losing...

and sit ups - eh. what are they any way? crunches?

yes, crunches goof

just ate 3 popovers, OMG so good! E made them all by herself...I wasn't even in the kitchen, didn't even go in once!!!!

I have a cooker in my fam! YES!!!!!

making tuna salad to make up for popovers

and ate 1/2 banana...doing ok

ummm, make that 4 popovers. I'm doomed!

So I really want to get back down to my 102 weight. Renewed motivation!!

Unfortunately that motivation came AFTER these...

Two eggs with veggies and turkey sausage - 8 pts
Wheat toast with butter and jelly - 5 pts
Crepe with nutella, blueberries, and blackberries - 7.5 pts
Another cup coffee - 1 pt

Soooo 21.5 pts already. Insert expletives here.

Thoughts for the rest of the day so I don't blow it... haven't eaten them yet but this is what I'm thinking I'll eat since I'm already at my max

Salad with balsamic vinegar and lemon juice, cut up bell pepper, asparagus, and beets - 0 pts
Steamed artichoke - 0 pts
Hot tea - 0 points

A+ for thinking :-)

haha, well I"m close to my limit too... and I'm making stirfry and rice tonight, ugh

4 popovers = 7 pts, I even weighed them to get the right pts, lol

Jam and butter for popovers = 3-4 pts.

tuna salad = 4 pts.
so 14 pts about

So I actually followed through with my dinner plan. For reals this time:

Huge romaine salad with bell pepper, asparagus, beets, and balsamic - 0 pts
One artichoke (minus the heart cuz that was a point) - 0 pts

The salad sorta filled me up, but I was glad I made the artichoke cause I was still hungry.

So staying at 21.5 if I can resist the ice cream urge. Plus I did my exercises which is a mild workout so maybe one point for that - then I'm only a point and a half over.

The popovers sound delish. Go E!

Nice!

I ended up not eating anything the rest of the night.

ooops, wait. Emily made a berry pie and I ate a slice from that...6 or so pts, (omg!)

so 20 1/2...YAY!!!

This is working so well, btw (keeping each other aware of our foodings).

Didn't do crunches...I'll do them right now...50 crunches.

Monday eats...

One and a half cups fruit salad 3 pts
Hot tea 0 pts

Hopefully gonna do cardio when i get off the phone with you haha

Oops... forgot to weigh myself. Now I weigh 106.5 so who knows if I was 106?? I'm gonna go with probably not.

probably not 106...maybe 106.3 :-P

so weighed 140.2 this morning.

eggs w/ salsa = 3 1/2 pts.

tuna salad for lunch (predicting) 3 pts

My scale only does half pounds :( . I heard you say blahblahblah.2 this morning and had a little scale envy.

Whoo whoo at 140.2!!

Go me!! 30 minutes of cardio with my heart rate riding at 80%-90% so between 157 and 186. Definitely think I need to go right before I pick up the boys so I don't eat, but at least I'm eating low point items.

Bell pepper and cucumber in balsamic vinegar - 0 pts
Eight ounces edamame - 2 pts (the nice thing is it's 12g protein too!)

Were your three egg whites and one whole egg good? I might try that for protein as well.

It's About Time Cont'd

From Monday through today... hers in italics:

Well, I had more tuna (it did have chopped celery in it) so 4 pts more and then I just had a bowl of ice cream for em's true bday.

so I think I hit my pts, but I did good, and would've been strong had it not been for em.

yeah, i'm gonna stick w/ the tuna diet....i am so skinny right now! course in 10 min. that will change, once my belly bloats from the ice cream.

Monday evening weight - 109

Tuesday morning weight - 107

Tuesday eats

Beef fajita taco with grilled peppers - 5 points
Chicken taco with mango and cilantro - 5 points
Poblano ranch with above - 2 points
One cup fruit - 1 point

Total 13 points

Romaine salad with chicken & goat cheese - 2 points

not much left for ice cream :( . boo. I knew I should've only eaten one taco hehe

So, morning weight was 143.6

so i lost 1 lb.

i ate tuna salad, 4 pts.

subway veggie sandwich, 5 pts.

handful of popcorn from walmart 1 pt.

handful of blackberries 1/2 a point

so 10 1/2 pts so far!!! WOOHOOO!!! And I won't be eating anything else tonight, I'm so stoked! I'm totally full, too, but it's partly cuz i worked all day, and was distracted.

I had the best trip ever to walmart w/ k, t, and j. K was SOOOO helpful and t brought his ds lite and played it and d was in my arms. LOVED IT!

LOL. yay.

{insert a few phone conversations here}

Bagel with cream cheese - 8 1/2 points

glad you said what you said about holding onto weight with the period coming and wanting to just eat cuz you're not losing any way... exactly what i'm doing. so hopefully i'll stop now.

xo

Plus tea with honey - 1 point

so 9 1/2 points total

1/2 banana, 1 pt.

Took a crap, -1 pt.

0 pts total

HAHAHAHA

STILL ON FREAKIN" HOLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG!!!!!! It's been 23 minutes!!!

I'm such an idiot.... i ordered something online and had it shipped to the wrong address AGAIN. I'm really depressive mode right now. I was so proud of myself for returning the other thing i ordered, finding the exact right amount online and getting it DONE and now i have to wait a fucking day to see if they can cancel the order cause they can't change the address even though i called IMMEDIATELY after i pressed the button. ugh. ugh. ugh. {edited to add: my bestie talked me out of this funk mostly by saying I understand it's frustrating but it's SHOES R*se don't invest your emotion into it, to which I laughed and begrudgingly said yeah you're right, and when I went back to check on the situation much calmer they comped me overnight shipping plus more money off, so now I still have money to spend on a gift card there! yay for besties talking us out of our funks}

and i'm 9 points on the bagel and fucking starving, and i have a gut like i've never seen. thinking i don't like this weight watchers stuff. or maybe it's my period. haha.

it's your period!!!! just wait it out! i was thinking...we need to just keep it under 20 pts the days of our period coming/here, and the rest of the time work on eating less the rest of the time.

what email about cheese??? {haha, I had actually said email about shoes on the phone to her but had to run}

So today,

1 1/2 banana - 3 pt

tuna salad - 4 pt

steak taco - 3 pt

2 sugar cookies - 2 pt

Iced black tea - 0 pts.

so I'm at 12 pts.

Not too shabby!

and had popcorn for 8pm snack...it may bite me in the butt...literally.

6 pts, just to be safe.

so where was i before? 13? so 19??

can't remember

Avocado 4+ pts

tuna salad w/ another avocado 6 pts

10 pts so far...

Where are you? What happened to you?

Yesterday I ate a lot but I did twenty minutes of intense cardio which added at least 2 points and that seemed to weight out my options (harhar) because I lost a half lb!!

Chicken burger with no mayo or special sauce - 7 pts
Cookie dipped in milkshake - a bazillion points but probably more like 6 or 7

so total about 23 points

Last nights weight 108, this mornings weight 106.5

Didn't want to eat out today so didn't eat until just now...

Two slices chicken lunch meat rolled up with 1/2 oz goat cheese - 2.5 points
About to eat a veggie patty with mustard & pickles - 3 pts

why isn't your phone wkg? it's my ONE day off!! well besides tomorrow

so i ate popcorn late last night and didn't lose an ounce last night! so back up to 143. something ( i was 142 yesterday!)

i can't eat late :(((((((

weight is SUCH A BATTLE now!!! OMGOSH!!!!!!!! we need to get down to our ideal weight tho, then maintain...its no fun maintaining a weight you don't already like!

so please, especially when I am close to my period, when i get close to my point limit, i need you to call me and talk me out of fooding myself!!! (shooting, but fooding, hahaha i'm a cornball)

Anyway, hope you did ok yesterday on pts. call me for sister's sake!!!!

talk to you soon!

BOO. I left the house this morning and realized my phone was dead. Just got back home and it's charging now.

LOLOLOLOL at the rest of your email. will call as soon as it's charged!!!!!

So I fell off the band wagon and ran far from it
tons of popcorn, 4 1 pt. cookies, chicken potato and green beans for dinner and a bowl of pudding.
Looking forward to seeing the scale tomorrow...NOT!!!
Poo on me :(

if you were on the oregon trail you would've been left behind

chicken burger with lettuce mustard pickles onion wheat bun - 7 pts
oatmeal chocolate chip cookie dipped in milkshake - 6 pts
lots of iced tea - 0 pts

So 18.5 pts though it feels like I ate a lot more.... weird.

hahaha
and feel you ate more cuz you're tummy is bloated...and poo on you too, cuz you beat me :( ;-)

panda express 10 pts.

SKINNY vanilla latte w/ whip 6 pts.

handful of almonds 2 pts.

18 pts

3/4 of a 7-layer burrito - 7.5 points
Chicken burger with lettuce tomato onion pickle - 7 points
Iced tea - 0 points

total 14.5 points - still feel like a fattie *bleh*

also for friday

3 cookies - 6 pts
3 glasses of wine - 6 pts

26.5 points.

So sue me.

The drunk sex (or rather drunk ducking) must've worked everything off cuz I was still 107.5 last night and 106.5 this morning.

So far this morning

hot tea with honey - 1 pt

Texts from my hubby

I am in love with the texts Brando sends me. Just from the last few days:

"I live you."

"I love you."

I also love that he texts me back instantly anytime I text him. He even texted back to a blank text I accidentally sent him with a blank text of his own, then another with ";-)".

Now that I'm not using my iphone anymore I should write down a record of all the texts he's texted me. My favorites are the random "You're hot!", "You're amazing!", "You're beautiful!" texts he sends that brighten my entire day.

It's Time, Cont'd

Last night and today... hers in italics:

yeah my weight has slowed too - only half a pound the last two days cuz it's the weight i've been at for awhile

chicken burger on lettuce with tomato onions and pickles - 4 points

one cup fruit salad - 1 point

hot tea - 0 points

bacon is 1 pt!!!

so 3 pieces of bacon 3 pts

2 pancakes w/ choc chips, butter, syrup, and wpd cream...don't even want to know pts.......but i'm estimating 8-10 pts. so 13 pts...just to be sure, and I'm probably

way over doing it. cuz pancakes are normally 2 or 3 pts, can't remember

that's awesome! i bet it makes you crave more though :(

add

one more cup of fruit - 1 point
two chicken lunch meat slices - 2 points

so 8 points? im kinda hungry. maybe i'll drink wine lol

oh and since we are being all confessional i had two glasses of wine yesterday and two cups of ice cream so 10 points? i think i was at 9 or 10 before that

I've been eating late at night, so i think that is my biggest problem. if i quit eating at 4:30 i'd lose the weight!!

two glasses of wine - 4 points
veggie patty with lettuce, mustard, and pickles - 3 points

so 15 points :( . boo. not much room for ice cream.

yeah not eating late at night would probably be helpful

ugh.

apple pie caramel apple - 8 points

fell off the bandwagon today :( . the extra skin sitting around my stomach isn't helping to motivate me. i like the detox better cuz it flattened that!!!

where do you get your veggie patties?

I just had a mega huge dinner w/ the fam...lots of wt. rice, wheat berries (new thing at costco, basically like rice, but w/ whole wheat), tiny bit of chicken (cuz who likes protein?!), salad, cucumbers w/ dip, steamed spinach, nothing really healthy, so lots of points. and when the kids go to bed i'm going to eat bananas w/ fudge and whipped cream, oh yeah!

tomorrow night is em's bday celebration w/ the fam and i'm having an ice cream sundae. i'll start again on tuesday. everything in balance ;-)

i did do 20 min. of p90x on fri night and am still SO sore. I'll continue that probably on tues. too. why bother today or tomorrow?!

yeah, i had my extra points this morning in a blueberry pancake and a half... not even gonna count the points on it now.

We get them at Costco. They have two kinds - Chipotle Black Bean ones are in the freezer section and are yummy and a bit spicy. The ones we have right now are in the fridge section and are Don Lee Farms Veggie Patties. They're yummy too but have more of a fresh taste than a burger taste.

So far, tuna salad, canned tuna w/ spicy mustard and celery and seasoning added, on top of romaine and tomatoes. pretty dang yummy, actually!

only 3 pts!!! and I'm totally full!!! I'll add a pt for the mustard and seasoning (lawry's seasoning salt) just in case.

So 4 pts so far. This might be a daily meal for me!! I could add bell peppers and cucumbers and carrots in the salad as well. yum!

We need to add our weight on these...it helps me keep track. I'm at the beginning weight again :( 144.6 this morning.

Adding weight is a good idea... I started at 111 at night, was down to 107.5 last night. We'll see what I'm at tonight cause I let my slippage happen today.

Two hours moderate intensity workout of hiking downhill then uphill on a 220 feet grade = extra 5 points allowed - good thing cuz I needed them

1/4 lb brisket - 8 points

1/8 lb chopped beef - 4 points

1/2 serving coleslaw - 2 points

1 slice wonder bread - 1 point

1 1/2 blueberry pancakes with no syrup or butter - 4 points

Wow - total is still only 19 points. If I don't eat any more tonight I'm doing good surprisingly!! Thought I wayyyyy overblew it with that huge disgusting(ly delicious) meat dinner.

Buuuuttttt I'm craving ice cream super bad. I guess I could use my exercise points towards it.

Way to go on the tuna!! Also, Mom adds tons of chopped celery and red onion to her tuna. The boys love it. Bell peppers, cucumbers, and carrots sound delicious in a salad.

Forgot drinks -

Two thirds of a gatorade - 1 point

Iced tea - 0 points
Cup of black coffee - 0 points?

So 20 points.

Inspiration

Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the desert. Isaiah 43:18

"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter."

~Martin Luther King, Jr.

Text from KT:
"I think you may the one person on the planet that's not personally flawed."

What You're Worth: Why i won't work for free and neither should you
by Camels and Chocolate

A few months back, a well-known band came to me via their publicist wanting me to promote an event they’re sponsoring. It was a cool concept, in a fun place, and it would allow me to check another item off my Life List. The kicker? They weren’t going to pay me for my time or my effort.

The sad thing is that I briefly toyed with the idea, and I might have green lit it had it not been for SVV. “You’re a professional. You’ve been working as a journalist for a decade. Your time, your knowledge, your experience—this is all incredibly valuable to a company. You’re not doing anything for free.” I tried to negotiate with them—something that as both a female and a Southerner I’ve always grappled with—but they weren’t budging. Not understanding what social media is about, or even the power of the press, they thought covering my expenses to attend the event—an event that, mind you, I would be working—was payment enough. And so after much debate, I turned down the opportunity last week with some regrets.

But you know what? After a few days to ponder this precarious situation, I’m glad I said no.

When did it become acceptable not to pay for a service? I logged my years of interning, I more than paid my dues, I’ve slowly worked my way up the ladder in this tumultuous media climate, something that was not easy, nor fun at times. To backtrack so much at this point in my career would be a completely wrong move. I don’t write for magazines whose rates don’t make penning a piece worth my time; since when do I spend days on a project making money for other people through promotion, sponsorships, advertising dollars and Lord knows how many other benefits that come cascading down the shoulders (and pockets) of the corporations that drive these things? The short answer: not now, not ever.

And this is where the Internet is at fault and possibly the economy, too. There are so many people out there perfectly willing to give away their talent for no charge—or, nearly as bad, $10 to $20 a post—that a company knows if you say no, there are 10 other writers who will say yes. But that doesn’t make it even remotely OK. That doesn’t mean you should buy into it. Because until enough of us band together and say this isn’t right, companies will continue to think they can exploit our talents.

I graduated from journalism school. Before that, I interned at magazines, newspapers, a TV station. I was a columnist for a publication at the age of 20. I’d worked on my first guidebook for one of the biggest travel brands in the world by 23. I was hired as a researcher for Harper’s while still an undergrad. I started at Newsweek the day after I graduated college. You’ll sometimes see my name in books. I’ve written for more than 50 national magazines and newspapers. I can’t remember the last time an all-access concert pass paid the rent. And what makes any company think that I will work for free, that I don’t deserve to get paid for the exercise?

You wouldn’t ask a surgeon to operate on your heart free of charge (or for front row seats at opera). You wouldn’t expect a plumber to come out and fix your pipes for no fee (or in exchange for a sandwich). Heck, you don’t even allow a server at a restaurant to deliver your food without leaving a tip on top of an already-hefty dinner bill. Why are writers and other creatives any different?

Women, in general, tend to get the short end of the stick, too. It’s a proven fact. In my experience, we’re also not very keen on bargaining, on asking for what we deserve. SVV has gotten four raises in less than four years at his current company; every one of them was because he went to his boss and said (in not so many words), hey, you know what? I’m awesome and I deserve to be paid for my awesomeness. You should give me X amount of dollars more for my skill and expertise. And you can guess what happened next: His boss did just that. Every last time.

I, on the other hand, have worked for some of the same editors for years and have never summoned the nerve to ask for an increased rate. In some ways, I’m just happy to still be able to say I’m a magazine writer. Many of my colleagues aren’t so fortunate anymore. But that doesn’t mean I shouldn’t be so bold in the future, that I shouldn’t make it a goal to work on the power of bargaining. Saying no to the band, something that was far from easy, was a baby step in that direction.

A fellow journalist friend, a male, who was a bureau chief at Newsweek for a decade, told me how a political magazine recently came to him with the offer to write an in-depth, 5,000-word piece for their publication. If you’re not in the journalism industry, you should know: Such an offer is a writer’s gold. We’re never given the space to write the long-form narratives or op-eds we often dream about.

He did the smart thing and responded saying he’d love such a gig, but how much did it pay? “$500,” the editor wrote back, though the friend now thinks, looking back, that the rate might have even been lower than that. $500 for 5,000 words. Ten paltry cents per well-thought-out word. (To put it in perspective, most national magazines continue to pay $2 a word as a starting rate, with more money given to their more established writers, meaning if this was a legit publication, he should have been paid $10,000 for such a story.)

Politely, he declined the assignment—he is after all, a well-known journalist, and to write such a story would take weeks of his time, weeks that could be spent elsewhere on much better paying gigs—at which point the editor shot back a very snarky retort saying that my friend should be honored to write such a piece for his magazine. Really? Is that truly what editors think these days? That well-trained, sought-after writers should be thankful for the chance to earn them money? Hardly.

My point here is to all you bloggers, to all you writers, to all you photographers, to all you creative types out there who feel like you’re not valued, here’s an epiphany: You’ll never be valued until you start to value yourself.

So I beg you: When you’re approached with such an opportunity, weigh the pros and cons. Is it a good career move? Are you getting anything meaningful out of it? What are you actually receiving for your time? Or is the company just trying to use you as one of these “cloud-sourced” money machines?

Whether you’re a beginning blogger with 100 readers or a veteran with 100,000, you’re valuable. And don’t forget it either. Because until you start to see your own self worth, how can you expect others to recognize it, too?

I've Never Had a Desire to Move to Seattle...

until now. Solely for this reason:

Amazon Fresh delivers fresh vegetables and fruit.... what?! The pictures alone are drool worthy.
I was ready to place my order until I saw the zipcodes they deliver to didn't include mine, and then realized they only deliver to the Seattle area. Boo. Seriously, I already love Amazon for their prime shipping, add in fresh vegetables and fruit and I'm sold.

It's Time Cont'd...

More for Today, hers in italics:

ok, but your diet sucks. you need to fatten it up...keep up w/ me, sheesh!!!

You know what's wierd...you get 2 pts less than me, yet I am filling up 4 inches of body MORE than you. wtf?!?!

not fair at all.

i've been cleanin' all mornin'. want to call you but i bit the inside of my mouth yesterday towards the back and it is so swollen and ouchie!!! again, wtf?! it gets worse cuz i keep biten it, i guess, cuz its swollen so bigger, ya know. i know, gross.

disgusting. try drinking noni or taking garlic? or swishing with salt water.

That is weird that I get 2 pts less than you but it's because i'm smaller. you need more sustenance. kapeshe?

That's ok, i've been doing stuff on the computer.

Going to pick up the kids soon.

10 cherries - 1 pt (thank goodness for Costco)

salmon salad...spinach, tomatoes 1 1/2 tblspns. of italian viniagrette = 5 pts.

at 16 pts, so far :( if I exercise tonight, that would add pts, i may HAVE to exercise!

Yum, if I liked salmon.

Chocolate Chip Clif Kid Z Bar 2 points (yes I'm eating my kids snacks)

how many points does exercising add?

Clif Z Bar wasn't very satisfying boo. Cherries were a much better choice.

It's Time

FINALLY! Somebody to be weight accountable with. For some reason I've thrown on a few pounds the last week, and I am ready to not go there again.

Fortunately, my sister is at her last point, too, and so we are doing Weight Watchers together. Really, it's all about portion control and making sure what you eat doesn't have too much fat, or if it does, that it has enough fiber to make it worth it. I've done it before a little, but this time I'm doing it for certain. In one day I'm back down to what I was before this week. Yay!

Here are our emails back and forth with hers in italics:

Yesterday:

eating

half a large bagel, 3 points
1 cup strawberries, 1 point

you're so silly, LOL

10 cherries, 1 point [cherries are a low-glycemic food that help make you feel satisfied and full longer according to the Fat Flush Plan - a perfect afternoon snack, and something I happened to have on hand]

yeah, but if i don't send it to someone i'll cheat lol

ok, lol, that works...let's keep it up...

So, thursday:

oatmeal 4 pts

sandwich from subway 5 pts

=9 pts so far :-)

You're at 5 pts.....bitch :-P

[forgot to email her my 4 point tortilla soup with chicken for dinner, but told her on the phone, and my 9 point ice cream last night YUM, but told her this am]

Today:

2 eggs w/ cheese 6 pts.
water w/ lemon/honey 1 pt.

f'ing a

1/2 biscuit w/ lots of butter and even more jam...3 (prob. 4) pts.

so i'm at 11 pts and the day hasn't even started. being skinny is over rated. i'm gonna starve the rest of the day...lots of water water water to fill me up...remind me!!!!

so i had an idea...i always eat a ton after working out, so i think i'm gonna try working out after the kids go to bed, then go to bed, so that i don't eat....we'll see how it works tonight.

i'll get my headset and talk to you in a bit....

3 egg whites, uncooked red onion, .9 oz goat cheese - 2 points - kinda gross to make and look at but the goat cheese & onion made it taste good
unsweetened hot tea - 0 points

haha, being skinny is over rated yes, but not putting on too much weight isn't!!

Yes, lots of water is important - need to remind myself too.

Maybe I'll work out with you tonight - I've always wanted to do it at night, too, after the kids go to bed as well for the same reason lol.

Must Study

Having a good relationship with your home.

Oops I Did It Again

I thought my arm was fully healed, so I went full force back into blogging and facebooking.

Turns out it's not fully healed, and if I don't stop aggravating my arm via the computer and phone I'll need surgery. Either way, I'll be dealing with taking care of it for ten years. I burst into tears when the occupational therapist told me said news this morning, even though she had said otherwise previously.

But, I've stayed away from the phone and the computer the rest of the day, done my exercises diligently and completely, and I am better this evening.

So, goodbye facebook and texting, once again. I don't think I will ever get to fully enjoy you again as I have in the past. Goodbye to an era of my life. I get to join the ranks of older people who don't text much - or maybe just smart people who don't text much, and get to learn to talk on the phone and hopefully enjoy it once again.

A New Day

This weekend was such an upper that I knew the down was coming. I just didn't expect it to feel quite so alone.

No school for me this semester. I'm taking a break - to find a job, to support Brando, to de-freakin-stress, to whatever. It's a weird feeling. It's been me for a year and a half now. It's a good feeling, though.

No school may be contributing to the alone feeling - I'm alone when the boys and Brando go to school and there's no classroom environment and what intellectual stimulation and little conversation that provides when one pays attention to break up the monotony.

I woke up early this morning to get the boys to school the minute the doors opened so they would have some time to settle in and get used to being back in school again. Shawners was so cute last night he says, "I don't know why, but I'm nervous about tomorrow." I told him that was normal because there will be a lot of people (something that makes him nervous) and he hasn't done it for two weeks, but the good thing is everyone else hasn't been there for two weeks either and all of them have taken vacations, seen grandparents & family that they will be excited to talk about. Even though he said he won't talk about it, I said maybe somebody else will mention something that will remind him of something that happened on vacation that he will want to talk about. After that, he said, "Can we go through the schedule in the morning?" to which I said yes, and he continues, "Wake up, take the dogs potty, feed and water the dogs, do my chores real quick, get dressed, eat breakfast, brush teeth and hair, get water and snack, and put back pack in car." So organized, that one. I told him wow, that's awesome that he thought about all that and it reminded me I needed to wake up and make them lunch, which is part of the reason I was able to get up early this morning and get their lunches together and get out the door before the school doors opened (a huge feat for me - not for them).

And now the house is quiet and I feel quite alone. There is a lot to do around the house, but now I see it and think once it's done I have nothing else to do. Hopefully that won't stop me from doing it this time like it has in the past. This is my down. And this is me trying to be okay with it.

New Year's Resolutions

Brando did the sweetest thing yesterday in the car on the way to Town Lake for our bike ride and asked us all what our goals, ideas, and things we want to do for the upcoming year are.

Shawners was:

-Wants a laptop

-(oh no! I forget, I will have to ask him again!)

-

Justinbustin wants to:

-snowboard again

-get a laptop

-(oh no! same here)

Mine were:

-Start a work out regime whether it be hot yoga, pole dancing, aerial dance classes, or something else.

-Decorate our home with Brando.

-Support Brando in starting a business this year.

Brando's were:

-Build a business this year

-Work out.

-Have regular family nights/days

-Blog on a regular basis.

It was so good to hear each other's goals and desires and be able to focus on them for each other. Today, Brando and I took our first step towards decorating together! We got some beautiful, functional bookcases at Costco, came home and immediately set them up. Brando and Justinbustin set up the first one together (so sweet!), then Brando set up the second one while Shawners and Justinbustin played Monopoly together. Brando even switched the second one up a bit to make it a little more decorative, put a lamp on it, framed a picture of our wedding renewal, rehung artwork to accomodate the new bookcase, and grabbed flowers from another room to put on two of the shelves. I completed the picture with a vase full of coral from our first trip to Hawaii to celebrate our nine year anniversary. The whole thing makes me smile the hugest smile from cheek to cheek.

Brando also started on his blogging regularly by documenting the process of setting up the bookcase, inspired to not only decorate with me but blog about it by these amazing couples.

What I just woke up to

To which I told Brando he's heaven in a Brando shape