My sisters dealing with long term affects from an accident back in December. So much so my Mom's coming out to take care of her. Which has me worried, my moms no spring chicken. The awesome lacrosse coach Justin worked with just got cancer. Brando's brother isn't talking to me and removed me from his Facebook. Brando's mom suggested I get on anti-depressants (in defense of her son, but the wrong son).
At least my sister and I made up when I finally called to talk. We agreed things would be different, like I wouldn't put up with her negativity about her family. Except when I told her about my mom coming out, she was pissed off my mom couldn't babysit her kids, no concern for my mom, no concern for my sister.
Not to mention I'm dealing with feeling like an empty nester already. Justinbustin's fourteen and been gone the first week and a half of summer already. Shawners been gone from 9-12 at vbs or volunteering.
I'm already the old lady going back to school. And really I have no desire to after having kids. Everything else pales in comparison. Not arguing people do good with their educations and educate others (dr r in the house), or work on their career before they have kids.
I have zero motivation to work, go to school, clean house, cook, anything but volunteer for the boys school, eat at fun places, sleep with Brandon, work on photos, and support opportunities for the boys.
I feel like when babies are around, there's always a reason to smile. Brando's a hard sell these days, Justin doesn't want to babysit, and Shawners wants a little brother or sister. Babies are what I do, plus I want my kiddos to have lots of siblings.
Feel like a total loser right now.
