Thursday, August 30, 2012
Tuesday, August 28, 2012
Just what I needed
Fun night out with the girls at one of their new houses where another announced she is pregnant with her second and I met a new girl. The original two I've been meeting up with since February when one of the girls and I met at Anni's bday dinner and realized we had a mutual friend (thanks, fb!). I have been meaning to get together with that mutual friend forEVER so we made her our excuse to get together. We've done three or four nights out and now one of the girls who had been looking for a house forever found her house and we celebrated her and her boyfriend buying it tonight. I looked around tonight and couldn't believe I found another group of girls that I enjoy hanging out with so much. I am so, so blessed. This was exactly the kind of night I needed.
Text to my bestie
I'm retreating into myself my own little hole. I feel lost. I feel unnecessary. Maybe I'm PMSing but I can't stand feeling this way
I think I'm doing this because now I'm having to deal with a relationship I've decided I don't want to be a part of anymore with that mom and I can't do it easily by avoidance like I've been able to in the past since Shawners is in her sons class now
Yes that's why I'm breaking down. I dont know how to get out of a relationship where I have to see the person every day and still have my friend be friends with their kid.
I am SO lost.
I think I'm doing this because now I'm having to deal with a relationship I've decided I don't want to be a part of anymore with that mom and I can't do it easily by avoidance like I've been able to in the past since Shawners is in her sons class now
Yes that's why I'm breaking down. I dont know how to get out of a relationship where I have to see the person every day and still have my friend be friends with their kid.
I am SO lost.
Sunday, August 26, 2012
Life
Ugh. Can't get to sleep. SO busy the next few weeks I don't even have time to see my girlfriend Jen since I've been home. I've seen her consistently every other week this summer and I miss her. And I haven't gotten to see Mai since I've been back which is breaking my heart because she leaves again soon. I am going to have to remind myself to take the hours the boys are in school to relax and play because the hours they are out are going to be crazy driving them or I places.
I'm meeting with a few friends tomorrow that I'd rather kinda ditch. This is going to sound bitchy but they're new relationships and I just don't have the energy for it right now. Love them just not enough energy to tread water until we get to know each other better.
We ended up switching Shawners teacher. The principal called after I emailed her issues Shawners had with the teacher and class chosen for him, ones that drive him to tears. I didn't ask for him to switch just wanted them to be aware of the issues if they became a problem. Still, they gave him the option when she called. The best teacher wasn't available and the rest are all on the same crappy level including the one chosen for him in the first place. Shawners ended up choosing Justinbustin's fifth grade teacher because his two good friends are in there and he's familiar with the teacher. Oh and only one trouble kid is in there that he's aware of, not two. I have to keep reminding myself on a stress level of 1 to 10 I'm at a 2 with this new class arrangement. With the first one I was at a 10. Still it's enough to keep me up all night and wonder if I did the right thing by switching him.
More but I should try and get some sleep if I can.
Update: Turns out there's not one, not two, but FOUR trouble kids in here. F*ck, f*ck, f*ck. Which has basically been my day. The two kids Shawners *thought* was in the other class are actually in here, there's a super annoying kid that's always bugging us on the walk to our car - think there might be something up with him, and a kid that's not too great of a kid that lives in our neighborhood. There are a LOOOOTTTTT of lessons to be learned here. I just don't want to learn them right now.
I'm meeting with a few friends tomorrow that I'd rather kinda ditch. This is going to sound bitchy but they're new relationships and I just don't have the energy for it right now. Love them just not enough energy to tread water until we get to know each other better.
We ended up switching Shawners teacher. The principal called after I emailed her issues Shawners had with the teacher and class chosen for him, ones that drive him to tears. I didn't ask for him to switch just wanted them to be aware of the issues if they became a problem. Still, they gave him the option when she called. The best teacher wasn't available and the rest are all on the same crappy level including the one chosen for him in the first place. Shawners ended up choosing Justinbustin's fifth grade teacher because his two good friends are in there and he's familiar with the teacher. Oh and only one trouble kid is in there that he's aware of, not two. I have to keep reminding myself on a stress level of 1 to 10 I'm at a 2 with this new class arrangement. With the first one I was at a 10. Still it's enough to keep me up all night and wonder if I did the right thing by switching him.
More but I should try and get some sleep if I can.
Update: Turns out there's not one, not two, but FOUR trouble kids in here. F*ck, f*ck, f*ck. Which has basically been my day. The two kids Shawners *thought* was in the other class are actually in here, there's a super annoying kid that's always bugging us on the walk to our car - think there might be something up with him, and a kid that's not too great of a kid that lives in our neighborhood. There are a LOOOOTTTTT of lessons to be learned here. I just don't want to learn them right now.
Saturday, August 25, 2012
Thursday, August 23, 2012
School
My heart is breaking for my little fourth grader to be all grown up this year in fifth grade. Been through this phase once before, doesn't make it any easier. Fortunately, coming out on the other end a caring, responsible leader makes everything worth it. So hard to see when you're in the midst.
Grrr
Created jet lag by forcing myself to stay up later than I wanted last night then sleeping in too late today! Sigh. Waking up early tomorrow will take care of it but leads to an exhausting day. Hmmm.
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