Breaking My Heart in a Good Way

A letter from my husband this afternoon that makes my heart ache in the way it's healing from the conversation we had earlier today:

Dear Bride,

I’m sorry. In my interview today, or rather walking away from it, something really mundane and not profound at all occurred to me. It occurred for a few reasons. Firstly because our problem, my problem, is that I don’t think of the people involved. Secondly, it occurred to me because ‘the job’ I was interviewing for was all I really thought of. I got the J.O.B.. I wasn’t thinking about the people. So what occurred to me. PEOPLE. Its about the people.

ITS ABOUT THE PEOPLE. I could go on an on about the JOB version of that because that’s where I am at right now and just processed the information through my head about the JOB & the people. But you wont care about that. So what about the Family aspect of the same. Well, take a minute and know my perspective. Look back 20 years to when I was in Justinbustin’s shoes. I saw my daddy working working working. Now he always told me it was because he has all these people to worry about (100+), but all I saw was his Job because he always said my Job… My work… I work… so on and so on. My example is Just DO to support. Interaction we never really part of it.

(insert segue here) Then there is your dad who I spoke to just before my interview. Well, let me sum up a difference in one word. SERVE. I almost feel like I should leave that thought there. Your daddy serves. He Serves PEOPLE. Because, its about the people. His clients. His Staff, His FAMILY. That’s what its all about, time with the people. Serving the people. Working FOR them, not working on them, with them or to support them… working for THEM.

That’s what has been missing. Serving for my clients, my job or my family means meeting YOUR needs. Needs. No ones needs are money. No ones needs are clothes, video games, makeup or bikes. Time, meaningful gifts, serving support and unconditional love are the only real needs any one has. (eating, toilets and paying tax’s excluded). I want to meet your needs. Completely and sincerely.

I love you.