*WARNING: Vent/pity party post ahead*
With this move I'm starting to question myself on everything. While my head is cleared and I feel like I can actually THINK again, I'm starting to wonder what the hell AM I thinking? My counselor says I think too long term, but what are we if we don't think long term? I live in the moment PLENTY and that has gotten me... well, here. What about getting THERE, where I want to be?! How am I supposed to get there?!
I'm sure this is a REALLY bad PMS week or being pregnant (I always was moody pregnant).
Being here in this apartment feels a little cagey. I'm appreciating being closer, but I forgot what the cage feeling was like without having room for the kids to run and be. I couldn't bring myself out of my head in the house, so I am glad we are back, but now I can't wait to be in a house AND be close to town. It wasn't possible to do right away, so this is a good interim step, but that brings me back to planning for the future. Where IS close to town that works for room, schools, family, and friends?! We sort of shot ourselves in the foot moving to an apartment and having the kids grow up where we wouldn't be able to afford a home in the first place (all the homes around here are $500k+). So many thoughts are raging in my head, and I just want to get them OUT.
I'm obviously a little behind but I gather you moved back into an apt? Either way like you said it is a good step, save money and get to where you will be comfortable in a house. And you still take one day at a time. God will guide you and your future steps. Remember to breathe too, b/c that's the one thing I always forget. Good luck!
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