Spent most of today in bed before I toughed it out and wrapped up a bazillion emails. I didn't drop chess club. I drew a few boundaries, though. One being the previous chair needs to communicate her scufuffle with the parents. Not me. I don't deal with parents well. On top of the fact, the mistake is not mine to deal with. She was fine with the fact, I just had to ask. What I signed on for *is* something I'm passionate about. That was not.

Learning, learning, learning. A lot about boundaries this year apparently.

And egos, maybe. Whole other subject altogether. I feel like judgemental people are being thrown in my face left and right. I recognize them quickly now, after being caught off guard so many times. The more I open up the more they pop up out of nowhere ready to shove me back down. I'm not sure what exactly I'm supposed to learn through all this, except to maybe not effen care?

Regardless, I have *got* to get through this PMS. I bought my acidolphus today as I'd run out which helps me not snap at least. But man am I being bitchy to Brando, who really doesn't need that right now after finally getting some relief from a certain stress at work, only for me to throw crap at him. Only I've been so cranky and have no desire to do his love language to show him I care that I don't quite know how to stop. I'm being selfish and want my my my love language. More more and more quality time. Probably because I'm draining myself elsewhere I want him to fill me up (that's what she said harhar). Got to get a handle on that!! ARGH. How do people *do* it? It being give so much of themselves to others and still have space, love, and energy for their families and husbands. Actually there's a whole online community for such called P31. Maybe I need to join one if I want to keep this up in any sort of capacity without falling apart :/ !