Looking back thru my posts this semester I can see I am spiraling. I think I took too much on and I can't handle my family, my emotions, and everything I've taken on. I'm starting to keep myself busy to escape my emotions. Now I've acquired so much busy work I'm either going to have to drop the things important to me - prayer group, robotics, volunteering or drop the commitments I've taken on - yearbook, chess club. I think I'm going to back out of chess club. It's turning out to be more than I thought and I don't have time for it. I want to go to prayer group tomorrow but I feel I need to stay in bed just to recover from the weekend and be able to handle the week ahead and I don't want to do that. I'm going to have to drop chess club. I can't handle it. I thought I could. I can't without the cost of something else.