Not a good week and not a good day. I miss my bestie like mad and have been having panic attacks all weekend long since she left on vacation Saturday morning. Normally I'd be fine but she's in Mexico and can't text all day like we normally do. I facebooked her but she hasn't signed on except to her boyfriends account and left me a sweet message that made me smile and feel better. I'm glad she hasn't received my message because she doesn't need to be concerned about me right now. I realize she's having a BLAST and I can't wait to hear every tiny detail. I also am realizing I may be a little too dependent on friends in my daily life.
Last night at girls night the girls were wondering why I don't have panic attacks when they're gone and this morning I realized I do. Part of the reason we moved back here was because of my panic attacks being away from M and Li - KT too as she lives across the street.
The funny thing is KT would be SO PISSED that the girls were just wondering about themselves and not concerned about me and while I'm totally fine with it because the last thing I want is a pity party but I LOVE that she always has my back. Period. No questions asked. She'll be offended for me even if I'm not. Which is great because sometimes I can be ok with people (not my girlfriends) making crappy comments and need to realize those things aren't ok. My freaking goodness I miss being able to text her a bazillion times throughout the day. Can not WAIT for her to get back!!
Update: Spoke to my sister and felt a little better. Forgot I have my sister that I talk with daily as well :) . She's been so busy starting her hairdressing business (which is going AMAZING - she's been doing this for two years including school and it's starting to snowball!) that I haven't talked to her as much lately.
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