*I am DETERMINED to make another 36 calls today. I completely flaked out with the boys having three days off of school last week and didn't make a SINGLE call. That's put me WAY behind on my goal of being finished by the end of February. That means I need to work every single day this week, and stick to my three days a week after that to make up for almost all of it. I am DETERMINED to make 36 calls EVERY SINGLE DAY this week.
*Had an AMAZING quiet weekend with Brando. Normally I go crazy on quiet weekends. I think I'm getting a little too used to quiet weekends these days. But I love it, cuddled up next to Brando.
*Think I'm making a habit of reading books in one sitting. First it was The Help, then the Hunger Games, last night it was Catching Fire, the second Hunger Games book. Those books are so easy to read, though, it only took me four hours. Started at 11pm, finished at 3am (oops). Second book was SO MUCH BETTER. And now I realize I think I was listening to all THREE books on shuffle on the way home from Arizona as there was a part of one chapter I totally recognized from the audio. Should've shoved Brando awake to change it. Oops. Fortunately, that was the only part of the book I recognized and my heart was racing through the rest of the book. I had to cuddle up next to Brando while reading it because I was so on edge.
*I'm pretty stressed out about three things right now. Spoke to Li about them last night and feel better about one of them, but overall they're just too much for me right now.
- Justinbustin's bike got taken this last week, right before he and Brando were supposed to go on a fifteen mile ride this weekend and then a fifty mile bike ride next weekend which is a whole other can of worms as Brando really wants to go but Justinbustin doesn't want to and I'm torn between if he's not into it he really shouldn't go and if Brando really wants to go he should go.
- Then, Brando finally went to an ENT (see below post), the whole surgery and taking prednisone for that is still freaking me out. I had him go to an acupuncture on Saturday to see if there was some miracle cure for nasal polyps, but no such luck. Then, the next day he was having horrible allergies which I felt responsible for like he somehow got them by going to the acupuncturist. He said he's like that all the time any way, which is true, but I take too much responsibility on my shoulders for things I have no control over sometimes and I still freaked out all day, then worried the acupuncture might make the prednisone worse or something. When I talked to Li last night, she said she took prednisone for ten days once when she had acute bronchitis and was okay, so that made me feel a little better about him taking it at least.
- Finally, my nephew and niece quit their job managing a coffee house, which I felt was such a perfect little setup for them. With this, I feel I'm pretty much transferring my worries and concerns of life onto them as I'm freaking out for what they're doing, where they're going, etc, and want to just tell them you have SO MUCH OPPORTUNITY right now - you don't have kids, you're not tied down, do something for your future. Maybe they are, though. Maybe that's why they quit. They were talking about opening a business account with Brando, so that's a good thing. As Brando says, I just need to ask them what their plans are and stop freaking out as I really don't know anything any way, and if I did what could I do about it.
*Just typing those stressors out stresses me out all over again. UGH. I think if it was just one of them I would be okay, but somehow all together it seems oppressing and overwhelming.
GOALS for the day: Be happy, don't worry. It's oversimplified, but really that's what I need to focus on. Trusting God would be a huge part of that. And praying. Really, it comes down to praying instead of worrying. Sometimes I don't know WHAT to pray for, and really just need to sit and focus on what it is I am praying for.
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