My Body Tells Me No-o But I Won't Quit

My new mantra. I wrote out a list of things chiropractic care has and hasn't done for me. Teagan's comment over on PSD gives me a little hope, but I am still trying to wrap my brain around it. So does the fact that the pain seems to be coming back mean that I am closer to recovery, or farther away? Still confused on that part. But not on the rest of this. I wrote down this list of what chiropractic care has and hasn't done for me so that I can walk in there on Monday and say here is what I still need, and here is what I don't need and not be an effen basket case and ball of tears like I was on Friday. Poor guys probably didn't know what to do with themselves when I kept going into the bathroom to try and make myself stop crying.

What chiropractic care has done:

-Improved my outlook

-Improved my mobility - able to sit in funky positions like I normally do; able to lay on stomach most times; able to sit with feet under me; able to lay on Brando to fall asleep again

-Improved my functioning - able to do simple household functions: laundry, picking up

-Gave me a desire to exercise more and for awhile ability ie running

-Given me 'moments' of normal where I don't think about the pain in my back

-Given me completely natural, way more than comfortable posture when standing & sitting

-Improved my arm immensely more than 3 months of occupational therapy

-Given me ability to text in small amounts without burning pain

-Taken away excruciating pain thus taking away the need for advil & most times muscle relaxants

What chiropractic care hasn't done:

-Take away the nagging, aching constantly changing pain along my spine, neck, & lower back

-Take away the overall feeling of abnormal 'something's wrong'

-Take away the pain of standing for more than 5 minutes at a time ie the pressure of standing on my spine

-Take away the pain & uncomfortableness of sitting more than a half hour at a time

-Show me the cause

-I'm a huge cause person so I can fix it or be fixed

-Take away arm pain completely - generally entire arm aches now instead of burning or tightness in forearm which makes me think it's moving away from a nerve issue

-Take away the feeling like I need to distract from the pain which I DON'T like - ate spicy tacos, drank margie to avoid taking muscle relaxants - DON'T want to be at that point