Take this morning for example. The boys are off from school and happily playing. I am off from school and so not stressed. Yet, last week, when I discovered we have $600 in toll tag fees I freaked out and immediately stopped spending any sort of money. Now I feel like there's no purpose.
One thing I have been trying to do to give myself a purpose is research transferring to a university. The amount of information available is so overwhelming I often have to stop shortly into it. I am bit by bit comprehending the information, though, and now just need to wait until the schools open again to meet with an advisor. In the meantime I am overwhelmed by the amount of information and feel like it will never get done.
And so here I sit. In pj's. Contemplating it never getting done. And not calling a friend who I told I would call this morning. Mostly because I don't know what we can do to hang out together that doesn't involve money.
Whew. Now I remember why I started blogging in the first place. It helps so much to get that all out on paper somewhere where it doesn't stay hidden in a file. I'm off to shower and get dressed.
Ugh I hate that!! One step forward, two steps back. Such is life! Always will be. We just have to learn how to find a way to take three steps forward again.
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Don't get overwhelmed with school. There are people to talk with about that. Look for phone numbers and call advisors, departments, etc at your current school and potential universities.
Depression sucks. Money is evil. School is always a process. I know exactly how you feel. But one step and day at a time. And you know a shower is always a good thing, and sometimes I don't feel like taking one but they always help. :)
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