SO PISSY at friends tonight. Stupid reasons but when they all happen right after another it drives me crazy !! Doesn't help I'm questioning the point of having friends in the first place. Suck all my time up and then when they get a baby or a boyfriend who gets the shaft? Yeah, that's right. How the f*ck do you think I make it work people? It's called effort. And I'm pissed off they're not making it. I'm being totally harsh and I realize it, especially in the new situations they're in. At the same time, I'm not. Part of me just wants to say eff this, the effort isn't worth it anymore. It takes two, and I'm kind of getting sick of doing the work of two.
PROBLEM is, I feel like because I never can say yes to anything last minute I'm stuck being the initiator. Maybe that's what the problem is. I'm the initiator. So, the second they can't say yes anymore, that relationship goes out the window. Yup, that sounds right.
Makes me SO VERY GRATEFUL for the girlfriends in my life who equally initiate (aka those who are reading, and a very few here).
Effort says alot- especially when your the only one doing it! it goes both ways-
ReplyDeleteYup! It was nice after I posted this I got several texts the following week from people initiating things and realized I was spreading my feelings about ONE person to all of them. Getting all those initiating texts that week made me feel much better!
ReplyDeleteStill figuring out the how to be a friend thing when they drop off the planet thing :/ .