and that's what i effen get for trying to do it all. my dad is upset because he can't get through to me on my phone whose bill hasn't been paid in two months and i'm upset because he's been calling me all day and i've been trying to call him all day and my moms been texting me things all day to do and i can't fucking do it all. and now i'm not going to work for my dad because ive been crying for the last half hour and i cant stand for him to be this mad. this emotional stress for him and for me is not worth it. i get it. he wants someone who is available 24/7 at his beck and call and i can't be that person if i still want to be a mom. he says he doesnt need me 24/7 but then he tries to call me "fourteen times" today and is completely exasperated that he can't get a hold of me even though he sent me a phone he somehow doesn't have a number for and ive been trying to call him on.
WOW. I realized working for my dad would be difficult, but i didn't realize things would go down this quick. it's not worth it to me to screw up my relationship with him because it's the "perfect job" as he says.
brandos so upset for me and wants to call and tell him off, but the truth is they are going through enough stress with their move, they don't need this on top of it. and i dont want to put it on him on top of it.
maybe my mom will talk to him. i talked to her about the issue earlier. maybe not.
either way, it's not worth the stress on my dads and my relationship and id rather not go forward with it if it's going to cause that. im sad. im really, really sad.
but i dont know how to respect myself and still be what my dad expects out of an employee.
he was already burned by my aunt who worked remotely for him and he's transferring part of that onto me. i dont want to go into the situation under that assumption, but i did, and now we're both paying the price for it.
i am sad.
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