Brando and I have been off the wall lately. Yes we've been married ten years, but that doesn't mean it gets easier. It gets harder in some respects. Things are more familiar, in my case more boring. It gets harder to keep things alive, fresh, and fun. It gets harder to be light and silly with each other. We still are, but it just takes more work.
When we do go on dates (which I very regrettably ALWAYS make because they're what makes me happy) they are a BLAST! We go see live music, go to free events and sometimes free dinners! In fact, I just won two $45 tickets to the Hill Country W*ne and *rt Festival this coming weekend (which I may not be able to make due to my weekend in Dallas - boo). We won a dinner to the Dr*skill which we are looking forward to using and we also have a free dinner at Z Tej*s. We leave home behind and enjoy ourselves when we do those things.
At home is another story - we have the stress of the home, location, boys, school, money, and way too much other things going on. We don't always agree on how to deal with them, yet we're both responsible for dealing with all of it. It's stressful.
Fortunately, every time I look at him, I see the man I married and I realize I REALLY want to be with him, even with all the crap that we have to deal with. My only wish is that we dealt with it better, nicer, kinder, quicker, and more succinctly. We'll get there. Maybe. Or not. Either way it's got to be done.
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