not pregnant AGAIN. not that we seriously tried - but we did technically try four times, I was just aware that it wasn't close to ovulation time and figured if I got pregnant it was meant to be. right?? i was SO sad when i started my period yesterday. i really wanted it to be meant to be because i wanted a baby in july before or close to my 31st!!! all my closest friends are born in july, and i realize that's a silly reason to have a baby in july but i don't care. now i'm not going to have a baby when i'm 30 cause we've waited too long!!!!! BOOOOO.

so now to decide if we try and have an august baby (there are very few people i know that i enjoy at. all. who were born after the first third of august) or september or october? I literally know nobody who i get along with who have birthdays in those month (unless you do? let me know if you do!). November is okay, December, too. Maybe I just need to wait a few months. Ahhhh!!!

i realize this is silly, but who ever is ready to have a baby? we won't ever be, so might as well have one now. or two :) . i could have twins and get two out of the way! Lord, would that be awesome :) .